For some reason, I all of a sudden got an urge to do an artist confession journal.
My mom is taking care of the kid while she is on her maternity leave, so I am enjoying my freedom while I have it.

So anyways. I wanted to talk about how I started art. To tell you the truth, I started art ever since I could hold my pencil. During this time though, I didn't draw anime. To tell you the truth, I thought anime was cartoons until I was in 6th grade.  My mom would take me to work and draw in front of me, like the Flinstone characters, or anything she could immitate. She can only draw by looking. So I always stared in awe while she drew on her free time just so she could entertain me while she works. So basically all the way until from about 4 and 1/2 years old until 9 ish, I drew Pokemon.GOT TO CATCH EM ALL RIGHT? HAHAHAHA. So I was a nerd and kept track of each Pokemon drawing I drew. I made a list of Pokemon I had to draw one day because I haven't drawn them yet. Basically a whole list of Pokemon, and they had check marks if I had a separate drawing for each one.

Around 10/5th grade, I drew Kirby, because that was one of my favorite games on the Nintendo DS. I drew every Kirby form there was hahaha. I even had people requesting Pokemon and Kirby drawings around this time. So I enjoyed drawing that time so much because I felt like I was an epic artist. Sadly around this time as well, my mom drew away my drawings, saying it just a waste of space. So yes, I lost all my childhood drawings haha. The one who built my happiness in the art world, utterly destroyed it. At the end of 5th grade though, my sister brought manga from her middle school library. So I got introduced to the manga and anime world. I realized that Sailormoon, Cardcaptors,DragonBallZ and Cardcaptors(My childhood shows) were actually all animes. So around this time, I rewatched all of Cardcaptors in Japanese. LOL. I am such a weirdo.

After 5th grade, I moved on to middle school. I really got into shoujo manga. I would read online manga all day. HAHA. I went to the middle school library and looked at the manga section, and would  look at any shoujo manga. Around the end of 6th grade , Katekyo Hitman Reborn entered my life. So yes, I loved Reborn with my dying will. HAHAHA.  I spent my whole summer watching that series after 6th grade.

Around 7th grade, I actually had the urge to start drawing again.  I would draw chibi animals, and then actually draw Shoujo bubbly anime style. I actually got bullied for my drawings in 7th grade. A guy in my class accused me of drawing a naked people in class, when I was actually trying to draw a mermaid(She was covering up ok guys). So he told on me to the teacher, and then the whole class made fun of me. I ended up having a hard time trusting people this time. I was bullied by so many people up until the 7th grade.  I had so many betrayals from people who I thought were my friends. After the class laughed at me, I tried to stand up for myself and told them, "At least I can draw. Is it wrong to draw?"  I got made fun of still. It got worse because they accused me for actually being a guy. They said my neck looked more like a guy.

My first real friends was actually . I would talk to her in the morning before school started. Talking about Kingdom Hearts. I am so grateful to her, because she would compliment me on my Kingdom heart chibis haha. Then later that year, I met (She can't log on her DA anymore so I am sorry if you guys want to contact her.)  She was actually the one who walked up to me at 7th grade after I was crying in class for being made fun of for my drawings. She was in the same period I was in while I was being bullied.  I had a hard time trusting her at first, but then she showed me her drawings, encouraging me to continue drawing. She complimented my drawings, saying I have talent. So thanks to her actually, I tried to pursue drawing. I was on the verge of giving up until she brought me up. I actually remember her touching my hand, helping me calm down while I was crying. She probably doesn't remember, but I can't ever forget. So honestly, she saved me that time haha. I wouldn't have survived the bullying, without her. I wouldn't have even drawn anymore. She actually is the one who introduced me to Deviantart and digital art.

I would lurk around Deviantart all of 8th grade. I admired so much. I watched her without making a Deviantart. Of course I stalked on her old account as well. I admired and so much. So I continued my best in art. Around the end of 9th grade, I actually started Deviantart. I begged my aunt for a tablet, so I could draw like and : LOL-

So obviously, I gained friends on Deviantart, and slowly start to draw guys like Reborn characters. (I use to draw a lot of girls actually). My life slowly got better, and I was able to meet more people and open my heart more.

Of course, introduced me to Paint Tool SAI and digital art tips. I wouldn't be here in art now without her. She doesn't realize how thankful I am to her. I was able to pick up my feet because of her and continue despite me being bullied for my art. My small talks with in 7th grade, slowly grew to friendship, and I am so happy we are friends today. I was able to be happy in my life thanks to her. Honestly these two, are my first true friends. I can't thank them enough.  Thank you so much. I can't even exhibit my thanks enough. The reason why I am living now is because of you two. I would have probably died from suicide if I haven't met you guys. Thanks, I will never be able to express my thanks in words.

I can't show you guys my old drawings because my mom drew them all away..so sorry..haha.
I would like to thank everyone on Deviantart as well. Receiving compliments from all of you helped me be more happy with my art. Thank you all so much.